Hey dude, so haven’t wrote in a few days, mainly because I forgot my password. You’re probs thinking typicallllll. I just got home from uni and the weather is ew so I made a cup of tea and decided to organise my uni diary and all that fun stuff which I know you used to love (not). I got heaps of twitter notifications from Auntie Stalker once again haha gotta love it! I went to see Bruce Springsteen the other night and got right on the corner bit by the stage which was cool, it made me miss you alot though as usually when I am that close you’re by my side and it’s usually at Tay Sway. I have only assignments and tests this semester so I am super tempted to go see her in Asia but I doubt my fundage will suffice (some things never change). Melissa, Van Van and I went to Sofra yesterday! It was soooo good and I had Sofra chicken and an Ice Tea like last time and like you always had!
We are all currently thinking up speeches for Mel’s 21st I hope you’re with us in spirit that night so you can listen and be entertained, I am sure you will be. Then next week it’s Macklemore and Bruno, I promise I won’t drive your sister too crazy I will behave or at least try to haha.
My auntie goes home to Scotland tomoz so I have to go to the airport twice for people I am actually picking up and dropping off, who does that…not usually us right? Because yeah also have to pick Kate up on Friday, bloody south islanders eh…only joking I have kept my word when you made me promise not to be mean to Kate you would be so proud.
Anyways I better go get some lunch and continue with my organising.
I miss you so so so much, sometimes it hurts and I feel lonely but other times I smile and laugh at all the good times, there were oh so many of them and for both of us I will now strive to make more with our little group I promise.
Love you to the moon and back
(for girls we say dude alot..)
So today has been quiet and kind of tough in a way, I was scrolling through stuff and came across the video of your speech for my 21st, it may have only been short but it meant the world at the time and still does now. It made me lose it a little and get a little teary eyed but I am ok now, I guess.
Everything just seems different without you here, I feel like I have so many people to talk to and around me yet somehow I still feel alone and without you and it just sucks. Like Taylor says, when it rains it pours right? But she also says “someday you won’t remember the rain you thought would last forever and ever” and I sure hope she’s right, I don’t want to be sad that I am without you (although at this point it is inevitable) but I want to be happy that I had you and “maybe the miracle was even getting one moment with you”. In fact when reading through old messages, I couldn’t believe that in one when I had the flu last month and couldn’t see you for a week or two, you even offered to come over and bring me supplies when you were the sick one more than me, it’s those little thoughts between us that I miss.
Kate finally finished the video blog after much editing and I think it’s awesome, wish you could see it as you would love it so much.
Anyway I better go make myself useful and cook dinner I suppose before mothership gets home.
I miss you more than words can say
but I keep you with me
Hey dude, so I miss you tons already. In fact my heart is pretty much aching writing this but I have to do something or I will go nuts. I am assuming knowing you you’ll have some wifi somehow up there in the heavens. Just think you can go to any Coach store or Taylor show you want now. Anyway I miss harassing you for not replying and I miss sending you those cat stickers on Facebook and I miss your tweets which always entertained me. In fact your Aunty Jess aka Aunty Stalker has printed them all out would you believe! She says she is going to stalk me now so I should watch this space haha. This week has been tough I ain’t gonna lie but whenever it gets way too tough and overwhelming I can hear you telling me to grab a cup of concrete and it makes me smile even just a tiny bit. You would have been so proud of Melissa, she got her tattoo ! I wimped out from even watching as needles are not my thing as you well know! Kate and Megan also came up from Chch for you, and yes many Chch South Island type jokes ensued..but I did refrain from being jokingly mean to Kate like you told me.
I was supposed to be doing a PE paper next week but have missed a bit of it so they have said I can just do it next year which suits me and I am sure is typical considering how many notes you used to write to get out of PE at Westlake =P
I hope you are proud of me for speaking at your service, honestly dude so many people were there it was cray cray you were and are so loved by many!
Anyway I should probably get some sleep, wherever you are now, I hope it’s better and I know that you know I loved you and thought you were FEARLESS, I will never forget the memories. May these break our fall.
Long Live my partner in crime
I will miss you forever
and love you to the moon and back
"...I used to endlessly daydream about what it would be like to grow up, because I thought that when you grow up and you’re not in school anymore, there are no more mean kids, or bullies, or people who pick on you. I know, it was this lovely, fantastic delusion that I had as a child. But, it turns out that it isn’t true because people don’t outgrow meanness and no matter who you are, how old you are, what your job is, no matter where you live or what language you speak there’s always gonna be somebody who is giving you a hard time, or picking on you or making you feel like you don’t deserve what you want..."
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